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I'm tired of having a job outside my field, I'm tired of not getting interviews for jobs in my field, I'm tired of half ass friends and people who say stupid things. I'm physically tired, I'm tired of not getting enough sleep because I wake up a million times every night and I'm tired of trying to figure out the next step in my life. I'm tired of even thinking about what to do with my life and how to get a job I love but I can't stop thinking about it. It seems to consume 90% of my day. I'm tired of lazy people. I'm frustrated at not having time to work out like I want to, because that's what really de-stresses me.
I miss my best friend, we haven't talked in over a year and I guess that's just what happens sometimes. We've been best friends for 15 years, and now we don't talk because of some really stupid stuff. And yes, I've tried. I think this bridge is just burned and we aren't going to rebuild it. I've spent a year without her, but sometimes I just need her goofy jokes to get me through the day.
Everyone keeps asking when I'll move to Italy, and I don't know. I don't want to move there forever, but maybe I need a year or two in a different place to collect my thoughts and come home with new experiences again. But no matter what I do, in the next year or two I want to advance my career and have a big girl job. None of that is looking good so far.
So here I am, sitting outside drinking my post-workout protein shake and smoking a cigarette (yes, I'm the picture of health) and complaining about things via blog. How pathetic is that? The best part of my week is the two 30 minute sessions I spend with the personal trainer. He's hot and I don't think about the rest of my life because he pushes me to my limits. When I run on my own I think of all this stupid crap and never come up with any solutions.
Right, so this post is just annoying and stupid, but it's all I have right now. I promise later in the week my next post will be back to normal!
aww love keep your chin up everyone feels this way sometime and you will get through it!
ReplyDeleteThis happens to me once a week, i get so bad even the running (or zumba) doesn't even help. You will get through it tho!
ReplyDeleteThe sweet ain't so sweet without the bitter, Emma. Don't forget that :-)
ReplyDeleteI appreciate you sharing this. Thank you so much! It is good to know that I'm not the only one who gets overwhelmed with the simple uncertainties of life.
ReplyDeleteThanks everyone! I'm still stressed about it all, but I'm doing much better. Its amazing what a one mile run can do...especially when I decreased my mile time by 2 minutes! I'll have a normal post soon, just thinking about the topic!
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