I'll admit it...I'm one of those people who makes resolutions on January 1 every year and I rarely follow through. I don't just quit after a week or a month, I never even start. My New Year's resolutions would be lucky to be more than a mere thought! However, my 2011 wasn't the best year of my life or anything. Sure, I did some pretty cool things and spent a lot of time with my family, but I really think 2012 has potential to be spectacular. The only way 2012 will actually be spectacular is if I will actually follow through. I'm the creator of my own destiny, or whatever. It's about time some good things start happening in my life, damn it!
So, here's a list of my resolutions. I couldn't pick just one, that seemed even more daunting than even following through with just one! I have so much on my mind and so many things I want to do and accomplish, so I figure it's best to just jump in and get it all done...that'll work, right?
- Get back into the diet and work out thing: Yeah, my diet and work out routine was definitely plagued by the holidays. I would constantly say, while holding a few cookies, "Yeah, but I was walking tons around the mall and now it's too late to even consider going for a run!" Not to mention, I had all those stupid parties I had to go drink and eat at (no, they weren't really stupid, I just call them stupid so I trick myself into thinking that I would have worked out instead). Anyway, 2012 means no more excuses for dieting and working out. Although, on January 1 my healthy plans were really ruined by some friends (see next point). I am, however, happy to report that I've been doing well the other three days of the year so far!
- Do more for myself: You may think this is selfish, but you really don't know just how much I do for other people. Sometimes it's really unnecessary, sometimes it's being a good friend, and it's just who I am. However, by "do more for myself" I mean that it's OK to skip out on some friend activity if I'm going to be otherwise productive, and I can't let my friends guilt me into things. EXAMPLE:
January 1, 2012. The new season of Mob Wives on VH1 was premiering at 7:00pm. I decided to go for a run/lift weights while watching the show. That's what I wanted to do, I had my mind on it, and I was excited for it. I received a phone call around noon from a friend, who had a Groupon deal to a movie that would cover a bunch of our friends basically getting in for free (since he already paid for the Groupon). I declined. I got a guilt trip. The Groupon accommodated up to eight people, and they wanted to get as close to the eight as possible so they didn't waste money. I declined, I said there were other things I wanted to do. He asked, "Like what?" as if I'm not busy. "Well," I replied, "I want to work out and watch Mob Wives at 7, don't bother saying anything about the show because it's what I want to do. Besides, I'm just about to go buy a new computer and so I'll need to set that up today, too." He said, "Record Mob Wives and then leave your files transferring over to the new computer while you're at the movie." Um, yeah, sounds great except for the simple fact that I DON'T F***ING WANT TO GO! But it was proven to me that I don't have solid plans, and I was guilt tripped because they didn't want to waste their money. I neglected to mention I had a Groupon for a movie once that no one ever wanted to go to, and I never (not once) begged anyone to come with me and the money went wasted and the tickets never used. Situations like this are no longer going to happen. I wish my friends didn't feel the need to talk me into stuff. I'm 25 and getting peer-pressured into going to movies. Sheesh. - End contact with "toxic friends": What's a "toxic friend" you may ask? Well, I don't really know what everyone thinks about them, but the Emma definition is: People who were at one time great friends, but are now people who pretend to care but really don't. People who only call when they need something. People who only call because they're bored and no one else is available. If any of my friends are reading this, and it even sounds remotely like you, you're either already a toxic friend or you're well on your way to being one. Hey, this isn't anyone's fault, so let's not get all beat up over it. It's simply one more annoying thing I can remove from my life. I'm not being bitter or anything, but I'm no longer wasting time and emotions on people who find me dispensible. I'm done reaching out to people who obviously don't care, so these people haven't heard from me so far in 2012, and they probably won't unless they contact me first. Maybe that seems a little childish, but, I've already started falling out of touch with some of these people. I don't hear from them, so they obviously no longer need me in their lives. Like I said, that's fine, no one's at fault. People simply grow apart!
- Quit smoking: Yeah, yeah, yeah, I've said it before. Some people say, "I don't get it, why don't you just quit?" Well, you don't get it because you're an idiot...and I feel at liberty to say that because I haven't had a cigarette in 40.5 hours (yes, it's that precise) and I'm crabby about it because I've fallen victim to the whole eat-when-you-want-a-cigarette thing, which doesn't help Resolution #1. Also, I was an idiot to even start smoking. Yes, I regret that day I started smoking. I regret that some day I might get cancer that could have been prevented. I regret that I let this habit and addiction go on for just over 10 years. I regret liking smoking. You heard me, I like smoking. I like the way it feels, the way it tastes, I like watching the paper burn down the cigarette, I like the way it comforts me, etc. I like it all. That's why I haven't quit sooner. However, now I have the perfect opportunity: it's super cold so I don't want to be outside (I never smoke indoors) and I think I'm starting to get a cold or something (either that, or I've smoked too many 2011 cigarettes). I hope I can actually quit and never smoke a cigarette again!
- Finish my novel and get it published: I just have to keep motivating myself. After all, I'm the only one that can make this happen!
- Do something spectacular: I don't even know what this means, but I'll know it when it happens! Maybe I'll find a boyfriend and he'll be spectacular...hmm...
- Travel more: I don't know where I'm going or who I'm going with, but I'll definitely get somewhere! I recently had a dream I was in Hawaii, so maybe that's next on my list!
- Find a career: I do enjoy my job. I get extremely frustrated sometimes, but that's just how it is, I guess. I can't wait to find a career, something I love, and something I'll stick with and be able to move up in. Let's face it, they always tell you there's opportunity for advancement in retail, but that's just how they hook you. In reality, there's only opportunity for advancement until someone quits or is fired, which isn't really happening and I don't think will be any time soon. So, onward and upward! Or something...
- This blog: I promise to be more dedicated to it!
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